Chatting to my friend Katie last night over a couple of glasses of wine, it occurred to me that I’m somewhat two faced.
I don’t mean that in a bad way, I mean that there’s an “English” Nikki and a “French” Nikki.
See, in English I think I’m quite witty and quick. Obviously I’m fantastic company, or the aforementioned Katie wouldn’t be seen dead with me, much less let me share her wine ;). I’m quick, I’m VERY sarcastic, and can be a bit of a bitch at times (in a bad as well as a good way!). I join in with jokes, start conversations, have a lauigh with friends and can generally hold my own (and anyone else’s for that matter).
In French I’m meek and mild, quiet, speak when spoken to, don’t have the confidence to make jokes or say anything in case it’s the wrong thing, etc. I’m like a diluted version of me.
I often wonder if my English friends met the “French Nikki” what they would think of her - I’m sure they’d find her a bit of a disappointment, and vice versa if my French friends met the English Nikki - I don’t think they’d know what to do with her!
I wonder how long it will take for my two sides to combine and beome the ‘Whole Nikki’? Or if indeed it will ever happen?
In the meantime I’m glad to have Katie around to vent my Englishness at and a welcome return to being the ‘Real’ Nikki