I have a dilemma and don't know what to do. So here I am looking for any help or advice you can offer. I'll try to summarise my situation as simply as possible though it's actually very complicated.
I'm married to a French man and came to live here in 2005. At the moment we are in the Loire Atlantique. I came here for my health. I have M.E. and Fibromyalgia.
Unfortunately our marriage has broken down and I'm looking at options and a way out.
It's far from easy when you are ill have no support network, no money and no family back in the UK who can help.
I'm looking at options and none of them seem easy.
If I stay in France I will at least have some furniture and all my personal possessions. But I have to find somewhere to live on my own that I can afford. It would have to be something small to rent as I have ESA from the UK and AAH (Allocation Adulte Handicapé).
Or do I go back to the UK with next to nothing and fall on the mercy of the council where I was living before I came to France. I have no family or friends that I can stay with. Plus I would have to leave all my furniture and personal belongings here. Add into the equation that I can't drive!
I have no savings and only my benefits. I'm trying to get my pension released early but that would mean going to the UK and if I failed in that I would have absolutely nothing.
I'm now 58 and my government pension is due to be released when I'm 60.
So I could try and stick it out in France. I would have hopefully peace and quiet. I love the country and can speak reasonable French.
If I do find somewhere else to live I could be very isolated but then again I already do to a certain extent as I'm mostly house bound.
Even if I go back to the UK I could still be isolated although able to sometimes see friends.
I have a meeting coming up with Solidarity Femmes and Social Services who will help me.
I just wanted as many opinions on this as possible. Any comments, help or advice will be welcome.